The Past Few Days...God has moved...in me!

Wow! God has definitely moved.
This week we have been doing VBS at Southside Baptist Church. These kids are so precious!. Everyday is so much fun with them. They are so eager to learn about God. They are definitely hungry and thirsty. I know of one that is saved and I think two more might be. Two of my kids have been asking questions so God is definitely working in them. I am continuing to pray that God will work even more in them. I know soon that they will accept Him as their Lord and Savior. I may not be there to see it, but they definitely are going to go back to that church. The adult that is helping me is one of there favorite parts of the whole day, and he loves being with the kids and he teached RA's at the church. Although God isnt moving how I expected He is definitely moving and thats all that matters. God doesn't answer to me and move how I want Him too because He is God and I am not. I cannot tell Him what to do. He tells me what to do and I obey. He has called me to share the gospel. I have done that and the rest is for God to do in His time.
God has really taught me a lot in the past few days through my quiet time also. Last Friday the topic in My Utmost for His Highest was: Where our self-interest sleeps and the real interest is awakened. It talked about dying to yourself and your desires and choosing God's. And thats definitely happened a lot in my life lately. He is molding me and shaping me into His image. His desires for my life are also becoming my desires for my life. Missions is going to be such a large part of my life. I still don't know the details, but I do know I am suppose to go. One quote I loved out of this devotion was: "A true disciple is one who has his new name written all over him - self-interest, pride, and self sufficiency have completely been erased." That is what I am striving to be : a true disciple of Christ. The next day went along with this. The topic was Where our individual desire dies and sanctified surrender lives. Here is a quote from that day: " A saint realizes that it is God who engineers his circumstances; consequently there are no complaints, only unrestrained surrender to Jesus." Thats another thing I am chasing after is for me to fully surrender to God's will with no complaints. The next day talked about abiding in God. It talked about how Jesus never chose His circumstances, but He always submitted to His Father's plans and directions for Him. I am suppose to do the same exact thing. It amazes me the intimacy that Jesus and God shared with each other. And to think that we can have that same intimacy with our Heavenly Father is mind boggling and so amazing. The next day was about adding to your faith in the matter of drudgery. It talked about forming godly habits in our daily lives. This is probably my favorite quote out of the whole book: "We are not meant to be seen as God's perfect, bright-shining examples, but to be seen as the everyday essence of ordinary life exhibiting the miracle of His grace." I also learned that one of the greatest hindrances in our spiritual life is that we look only for the big things to do. Which is what I had been doing all summer til God got a hold of me and said I called you as my messenger....share the Gospel and let me do the rest. "I must realize that my obedience even in the smallest detail of life has all of the omnipotent power of the grace of God behind it. If I will do my duty, not for duty's sake but because I believe God is engineering my circumstances, then at that point of my obedience all of the magnificent grace of God is mine through the glorious atonement by the Cross of Christ."
God really spoke LOUDLY to me yesterday about my future and His will for my life. The title was "Will You Lay Down Your Life?" The verses that were in it were John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. And in John 15:15 it talks about how He has called us friends. In my Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers says "Jesus does not ask me to die for Him, but to lay down my life for Him." This means God wants all of me everything. Not just part of me. So I layed down my life for Him and gave myself to Him for Him to use me for His kingdom! "It is much easier to die than to lay down your life day in and day out with the sense of the high calling of God. We are not made for the bright-shinig moments of life, but we have to walke in the light of them in our everyday ways." God calls me to live for Him even in the dull non-bright-shining moments of everyday life. So all if this has brought me to the point of following God's plan for my life and reminding me that I am the messenger and my job is to tell, it is God's job to create the change and save people for He is God.
Regardless of results...God has definitely changed me this summer, and I know He has more great plans in store. And I can't wait to see what else God is going to do.
Thank you for all of your prayers continue to pray.
In Christ, Kacey.